LOS ANGELES вЂ” For nearly all of his life, Blake Smith stated, вЂњevery inches of my human body craved male sexual contact.вЂќ
Mr. Smith, 58, who states he thinks homosexual behavior is incorrect on spiritual grounds, attempted to tough it out.
He invested 17 years in a doomed marriage while fighting their urges all day long, he stated, and dreaming about all of them evening.
But in the last few years, he shares with his second wife, who married him eight years ago knowing his history as he probed his childhood in counseling and at menвЂ™s weekend retreats with names like People Can Change and Journey Into Manhood, вЂњmy homosexual feelings have nearly vanished,вЂќ Mr. Smith said in an interview at the house in Bakersfield, Calif. вЂњIn my 50s, for the time that is first i will glance at a lady and state вЂsheвЂ™s really hot.вЂ™ вЂќ
Mr. Smith is regarded as huge number of males in the united states, referred to as вЂњex-gay,вЂќ who think they will have changed their most elementary sexual desires through some mix of treatment and prayer вЂ” something many scientists say hasn’t been shown feasible and is probably an illusion.
Ex-gay guys are usually closeted, fearing ridicule from gay advocates whom accuse them of self-deception and, at the exact same time, fearing rejection by their church communities as tainted oddities.